ik that betas are easy it's just that if i fail again i'm never going to forgive myself so i want to make sure the next thing i take care of does not die but i also don't want anything to die so i'd rather not do any research and get no animal because even if i do the research and do things...
if i don't decide if i want to get it before the reptile expo in may im not getting the gecko... and probably not going to get a gecko in general ever. Ive never really been a fan of reptiles till now, but im fine to go back to mammals like cats and dogs
i forgot to spray it more than beans because after all they don't feel emotions and i hate myself for thinking like that because they still help our ecosystem and they are still living creatures... i wish i could just plant it out where it lives so it could survive by itself. it probably won't...
i just feel even worse now because after beans died ive been so sad that i forgot there was even a venus flytrap in his cage, and even worse i did not have beans to remind me to spray the trap because every time i sprayed beans i sprayed venus... now im just killing everything.
ik ik i just feel very un persuaded to do so because ive never really been good at sticking to something that bores me fast, thats why ik u people are right and i should not get an animal
i know im over exaggerating... but ive given up on my dumb dream of being a vet and i have for a while but this is the cherry on top. Im probably not going to get another animal for a while if not ever because of the stress of their death and the stress of taking care of them
welp i said i did not want it to my parents :/ they don't want an animal to die they just want to help with all my sadness which is basically depression. I still told them no and they understand
srry bout that, probably should not have said cross my fingers he lasts a while. What i meant was cross my fingers that he does not come with any problems and stuff, that was a sucky thing to say.
Luffy is gonna come home may! fingers crossed he last a while! I wish there was a reptile simulator of some sorts that you could basically take care of like a real animal and if it dies then there is less guilt because it was never a real living animal, that would be great. (i get sad when my...
im trying to hold back my sadness which is easy on here but i'm really sad in irl (as you probably knew because who would not) I'm going to make a proper marker on there grave, i kinda wish i buried him in his live plants substrate because then he would help it thrive oof ;-; Do you have any...