probably losing my dog today

Carlton

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My 9 year old rescue cattledog Bug is at the vet, having been heavily sedated most of the day. She sleeps on my bed and her trembling and crying woke me out of a dead sleep at about 4 am. She had had her annual dental cleaning and a tiny growth removed from her face last Thursday, but also had a spinal xray as she'd been a bit painful a few days before the scheduled cleaning. We suspected she might have some arthritis starting. Unlike most cattledogs she's no stoic. Has always made a fuss about everything. Spine looked basically OK. However, the xrays showed half of one rib was simply missing. She's never had any sort of injury there that I know of. Congenital defect? Another possibility was that there might be a soft tissue mass and possibly the rib was being resorbed. They consulted with a specialist up in Anchorage. Sent her home with pain meds and a steroid to see if that helped. She did seem to be better yesterday, quiet, but peaceful, hungry, her usual nice self. Then this morning she lost all motor control of her hind legs, her sphincters, was hurting, and terrified. Almost posturing as if having seizures.

We don't have a 24 hour emergency vet clinic here but I called the vet's service and talked with her at about 5 am. Gave her a triple dose of the pain med which relaxed her a little, but she was still paralyzed and still hurting when I got her to their office at 8 am. She's been there ever since. The vet called a while ago to say they've had to give her 3 more cycles of IV pain control...each is only lasting about 2 hours. They did an ultrasound and suspect there is a mass where the missing rib should be and her spinal cord looks like it might be involved too. The next step is to go down to see her at the end of their office day and by then we'll know if they've been able to control her pain any better. If not, the decision will probably be clear. I don't think I want to put her through another day like this one even without a confirming biopsy.

Of course I feel horrible, but in a weird way it might be an easier more humane choice than trying to bring a partly paralyzed dog back over months and having to face the same decision again. If she wasn't in such pain it might be worth trying.

Thank you so much for listening.
 

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@Carlton ...thinking of you and Bug. So sorry to hear she's in such pain. You have a hard choice to make...my thoughts and prayers are with you both.
Hugs.
 
I'm so sorry that you and Bug are going through this. It's never an easy choice, but know that we're all thinking of and supporting you.
 
Thank you all.

Bug did not improve at all overnight. We decided to give the steroids 24 hours to work...if the paralysis was due to a herniated disc there should have been some response by then. Treatment had no effect and she needed higher doses of pain control by morning. There was no way I would put her through more. When I saw her the next morning she was so doped up I don't know how aware she was of anything. She's not hurting any longer...but I sure am. Hard to believe that 3 days ago she was stalking feral bunnies in the bushes and hogging the couch as usual. I can't bring her home to bury because the ground's been frozen solid for months. There is a veterinary crematorium 80 miles away. A local friend and I may take her there tomorrow if the weather cooperates.
 
So very sorry for your loss Carlton. I'm sure you have many good memories of Bug to keep in your heart. Keep her there! Sending you hugs. It's not going to be easy to get over for sure.
 
I just went through a very similar experience with my old pup Loo. She began to shake and tremor and was in noticable pain after exercise and laying down looked difficult for her. I brought her into the vet and they came to the conclusion that she had severe hip displasia. I was confused how it can already be so severe if shes only been showing visible effects of pain for 5-7 days. Vet told me this breed of dog (pitbull) can sometimes be too tough for there own good. 2 days after getting a pain killer perscription so she could enjoy her last days pain free she also lost complete motor function of her hind legs. It was completetly devastating as she was almost 13 years old and there was nothing we could do. I decided it was best to have her put down immediately with an at home euthanasia. Hardest thing ive ever had to do. Grew up with that dog and she was and still is a massive part of my life that im forever thankful for. I wish you the very best in these heartbreaking times and i hope whichever decision you make you come to peace with. She will be forever stalking bunnies in doggy heaven. Best wishes to you and your family.
 
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