feeling discontent.

amanda509

amanda509

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have you ever felt like you were stuck on a carousal and despite how hard you try, you cant get off? thats where im at right now. i have been going through the same monotonous schedule everyday for way to long. eat, sleep, school, work, repeat...and im getting sick of it. im working full time hours between two jobs at minimum wage and still cant afford even the cheapest rental around here that allows pets...im going to school full time at a trade school that is now getting the reputation as a poorly managed drama center. i spend all my free time with my boyfriend and barely have time to sleep, let alone eat. im getting bored with life.

id love to drop out of school and work all day just so i can move out, but then i would of payed 15 grand for half a year for nothing. i havent learned a single thing in school for 6 months that i havent already known! and the credits are non transferable! im being forced to do a speech for a competition i had no interest in entering and i have no time to memorize the stupid thing. ive tried telling them time and time again that i want to back out, but they just beat around the bush and wont let me.

im tired of sitting here and waiting for something to change, or to finish school, or to move out, or get a nice job, because no matter what i do, i cant change anything myself. im stuck. i want a career i love, but although it seems ive found one, im chasing a dead dream. it seems like its struggle after struggle after struggle, and although it takes struggle to get what you want, one person can only take so much before they are broken.

sorry for the vent. just feeling down this morning.
 
I understand completely where you're coming from

Wake up - work - school - home - sleep - repeat 5x

Grades starting to slip in school because I've stopped caring about it as much because it just seems to be the same thing over and over, and the people that are in my classes are just...frustrating..

I'm lucky enough to not have to pay for my schooling (GI Bill) but I just bought a house with my wife and have to pay for that :rolleyes: I can't just switch schools either or drop out and go to a new college, ITT is notorious for having non-transferable credits.

I like my current job as an electronic engineer but I would love to change and become a chef.. but that's not going to pay the bills right now and I can't just drop everything to go chasing a dream that may not even happen. Especially with having house payments and bills that drain my funds already.

I've been in a rut for a few months as well, but I'm saving a bunch of money to get around 8 of my friends together with my wife and I and going to vegas for 4 days. while I will still have to go back home and face the monotony it will break it up. I'm even paying to have my wifes and my friends from when I was in the army come from Kentucky and Colorado to come to vegas with us. You may not be able to do something but I do find that small breaks in daily life like a small trip somewhere or a vacation may just be enough to break the monotony of everyday life and help you get back on track :)
 
amanda509 said:
have you ever felt like you were stuck on a carousal and despite how hard you try, you cant get off? thats where im at right now. i have been going through the same monotonous schedule everyday for way to long. eat, sleep, school, work, repeat...and im getting sick of it. im working full time hours between two jobs at minimum wage and still cant afford even the cheapest rental around here that allows pets...im going to school full time at a trade school that is now getting the reputation as a poorly managed drama center. i spend all my free time with my boyfriend and barely have time to sleep, let alone eat. im getting bored with life.

id love to drop out of school and work all day just so i can move out, but then i would of payed 15 grand for half a year for nothing. i havent learned a single thing in school for 6 months that i havent already known! and the credits are non transferable! im being forced to do a speech for a competition i had no interest in entering and i have no time to memorize the stupid thing. ive tried telling them time and time again that i want to back out, but they just beat around the bush and wont let me.

im tired of sitting here and waiting for something to change, or to finish school, or to move out, or get a nice job, because no matter what i do, i cant change anything myself. im stuck. i want a career i love, but although it seems ive found one, im chasing a dead dream. it seems like its struggle after struggle after struggle, and although it takes struggle to get what you want, one person can only take so much before they are broken.

sorry for the vent. just feeling down this morning.
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...seven days later, feeling better?
 
Does someone feel like the Morton girl without an umbrella? One day at a time. Things WILL change.
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so, im basically saying screw the competition because ive tried to study for days now, and because of lack of interest, i cant remember a thing..and it needs to be memorized by Wednesday..well...they can kiss my butt. im also trying to make light of the having no boyfriend situation...but its not working. i went out with my friend the other night for a girls night out...she got asked out by a super hot guy by the end of the night even though she was taken...i couldnt even get a cute guy's attention for 5 seconds...wtf? i cant even get a one night stand! gah! what is wrong with me!



Eltortu said:
Get a girlfriend, they are more understanding than guys. :D
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lol nice idea, but been there, done that....they arent as understanding as ud think they would be :p
 
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