Troubledluna80
Established Member
I totally understand the fear. I have a colony of Dubai roaches. When I first got a chameleon I was all about saving money and having healthier bugs. The small Dubai’s at pet store looked more like isopods than roaches so I was like I can handle this and set up a tote. I order adults and when I opened the package I screamed. Holy fuck was I not prepared for how big and Terrifying they looked. I couldn’t leave them in the box so I threw them in the container. I still haven’t gotten over being scared of them but I added isopods and springtails that help keep the cage cleaner so I don’t have to clean it as often.Omg .. I would freak hearing their legs lol. I freak out changing their food too. I need to do a cleaning. & omg I don't want too hahaha. I need to order more bugs next week & I'm terrified lmao. Every morning I hype myself up. I need like a pep talk lol like okay here we go here we go. You got this. Lmao.
Anyways I'm glad you can relate. I know it gets easier for some but having OCD. (Germaphobia) this is like my worst nightmare. I don't know what I was thinking getting into this. But I'm trying to be strong. Last night I had kind of a break down. Cleaning his cage & over thinking the he'll out of it. But I'm better this morning.