laurie
Retired Moderator
Oh please, don't torture yourself! Your care and dedication was ten times better than most people faced with the same situation. She was lucky to have you and probably had a much better life in general. You did nothing wrong and couldn't have done anything else.
Peace to Ninja and to you.
Carlton is completely correct, you were the best you could be for Ninja. She lived a good life, was well cared for and loved. You did not fail her. Life failed her in the end. You made sure her life was quality until that time.
When you are ready, please get another chameleon. So few people care for Chams as well as you did. Somewhere their is a Cham just hoping you will take it home and provide the life for it that you did for ninja. We will all be right here waiting for you.