Part of the issue with this discussion is that some tried to offer ways of ending the animals life. Weather or not you offered good advice, it likely should have been handled in a better way. The OP has made a choice and, even though I would have chosen not to do it, that doesn't make me right. The actual ways of euthenizing an animal did not have to be so graphic. Many young children look at the forums and I don't think I want them trying something like that. Please remember the original point of the discussion and stop bickering so we can at least follow along with the OP and the experience if we choose to. It does take an amazing amount of effort and dedication to attempt something like this, and for that I am impressed, even if I may not agree. I would like to follow along without the added drama.